So Damn Rich

The 5th assigment is posting gratitude list about wealth-related blessing I’ve got so far. Wow, I’m so damn wealthy, I don’t know where to start from…

I’m grateful for being able to help people I love from what I’ve got. Terima kasih.

I’m grateful for my current cellphone(s) of course. Bukan tipe terbaru, bukan yang high-end juga, tapi lebih dari cukup untuk jadi pelipur lara, bisa ngetweet, bisa text-messaging, bisa foto-foto, bisa nyimpen *uhuk* hidden video. Terima kasih.

Saya bersyukur untuk yang saya beli dengan penghasilan sendiri, walau keluar masuk bengkel, tapi lebih baik ketimbang keluar masuk penjara. Apalagi penjara hatimu. Terima kasih.

Grateful for having my own shelter, even if it is small, I know and I’m sure that I’m gonna happily settle there. Terima kasih.

Grateful for financially supporting myself for hura-hura, foya-foya, beli ini-itu, jalan-jalan kesana-kemari, tanpa minta dari yang lain. Terima kasih.

I’m so damn wealthy, for myself. We’re all rich. We’re only poor when we lack of gratitude, sadly it happens too often.

May 5, 2012
― a damn rich rakyat jelata

Because each breath you take is more than magical. Because your existence alone is more than a magic. Because you live until this very today, to remember yesterday, to prepare for tomorrow.

9 Simple Things from Yesterday
Waking up, a cup of hot soy milk, a slice of fried banana, fun classes, teacher’s room conversations, smoking alone in the terrace, looking at the moon, a silly argument on bbm, fun timeline.

Scars
October last year, I got an accident. I fell off from my motorbike and got minor bruises on my hands and knees. I didn’t really have a problem with them; however, now those bruises leave scars. The big one on my right hand. It’s quite obvious and people often notice it. When they ask, I usually jokingly answer that it was a tattoo that I had it removed. Some of them look surprised. Well, I may as well take benefit from it. Perhaps it improves my image, as either an ex bad guy or a tough guy. Sort of…

What’s a relationship? Something, or someone we can relate to? How’s a relationship called good, or bad? How many kinds are there? Is “it’s complicated” included in a kind of relationship too?

Relationship; hubungan. Apalah batasan dari sebuah “hubungan”? Interaksi? Komunikasi? Intensitas? Frekuensi? Atau apa sih? Saya juga tidak begitu mengerti. Mungkin yang saya pahami adalah, sesuatu yang bisa kita sebut sebagai hubungan (relationship) tidak untuk dijabarkan, baik panjang lebar atau singkat padat, melainkan dirasakan. Kali ke-3 ini, #MagicalMay2012 mengharuskan saya untuk berbagi cerita tentang 3 hubungan dengan 3 orang yang paling berarti bagi saya. Sebenarnya mudah sekali. Sangat mudah. Tetapi menuangkan apa yang biasanya saya rasakan dalam hati sendiri dalam bentuk tulisan ternyata tidak mudah. Saya kesulitan. Semua terasa terlalu pribadi buat saya. Semoga esensi rasa sayang dan bangga saya kepada 3 orang berikut tidak rusak hanya karena penyampaian saya yang konyol dalam tulisan ini…

Mom, My brother and My sister ― yang selalu saya banggakan

Mom
I’m no longer a little boy, but whenever my mom is around, I can’t help but acting like one who always bothers his mom with questions and ask her for this and that. Selalu ada masa di mana ketika saya merasa tidak enak badan karena lelah bekerja atau sekedar demam, flu dan masuk angin, saya mulai ngerecokin nyokap minta dikerok. Tentu ini cuma sugesti, tapi setiap selesai kerokan, saya sih langsung merasa mulai sehat. Sering saya mengeluh ke nyokap, karena sebagai seorang ibu, beliau bawaannya selalu ingin beres-beres setiap masuk ke kamar saya. Akibatnya, sering sekali barang-barang saya berpindah tempat, bahkan hilang, karena dibuang olehnya. “Kirain sampah…” begitu biasanya beliau menjawab dengan santai setiap saya mulai ngoceh-ngoceh. Saya sih gak marah, tidak bisa marah. Dulu, waktu masih abege, sering marah ke nyokap. Sekarang, sudah cukup mengerti bahwa, everything my mom does is nothing more than a reason but love. I love her. It may make me sound like a momma’s boy, but I love her. I never tell her, though. Gak kebayang kalau saya bilang “I love you” ke nyokap, pasti beliau memandang heran dan menyangka saya stres. It’s all in my heart. She’s my life, my soul, my everything. We even look alike. If I were a woman, at her age, I would definitely look like her. Only less beautiful, I don’t think I can be as beautiful as her. I love you, Mom.

My Brother
When we were kids, we didn’t really get along well. We argued a lot, we fought each other. I always acted like I was always right because I was an older brother. Everything changed when I was at senior high school, and he was an SMP student. I don’t really remember why, but as the time went by, we just got along well, we did things together, we talked about this and that, we shared. And it continues until today. I’ve been no longer arrogant only because I’m the oldest son, and he’s been aware enough that he’s younger than me. My friends are sometimes amazed to see how good and well-balanced the relationship my brother and I have. Not all brothers can get along this well, but we, my bro and I, are proud enough to relate to each other like this. We respect each other, we laugh at each other, we even make fun and mock each other. I hope my brother won’t read this, but I’m proud of having him as my brother, and err…yeah, of course I love him.

My Sister
I’ve witnessed her growing up, from a sweet, pretty and smart little girl, until today when she’s become a beautiful girl in her early 20s. She’s the only daughter, she has this masculine and stubborn character, probably because of growing up with 2 brothers who are stubborn as well. But she’s a caring person, especially to her brothers. My brother and I depend a lot on her. My sister is a very sanguine and choleric person. She’s good at telling stories, or gossiping. She’s a funny girl and is fun to be with. I always enjoy talking to her, or hanging out with her. Every weekend, I usually hang out with her and my brother to random places, and have a little quality time together. She’s the person I trust most in this world, she’s the one I turn into if I need someone to talk. She’s my consultant, and my fashion consultant as well. I often do and believe what she tells me to or not to. Just like to my mom and my brother, I never tell her how much I love her as my sister. She’ll laugh like crazy if I ever tell her this, but yeah, just like to my mom and my brother, I also love her with my heart and my soul.

Well, turns out it’s not that difficult, I could write those things above. It’s never enough to express love in any manners and matters, once you feel and cling to it, that’s a relationship full of love. Dear God, thank you, thank you and thank you for blessing the love and companionship with and from them.

May 3, 2012
― a grateful brother

Tentang Hari Kemarin

(satu) Datang terlambat (lagi) ke kantor dan tidak ikut upacara Hardiknas, ternyata absen gue sudah ditandatangani oleh rekan kantor, jadi tidak dapat teguran (lisan).

(dua) Kelaparan karena gak sarapan, tiba di kantor disuguhi gorengan. Lumayan, gak keluar duit.

(tiga) Setelah makan gorengan beberapa potong saja, kenyang sampe sore, jadi melewatkan makan siang. Lumayan, gak keluar duit (lagi).

(empat) Dapet rejeki tak seberapa, tapi tetap bersyukur. Lumayan untuk rokok beberapa hari.

(lima) Teman sekantor pergi ke indomaret, pulang-pulang beliin gue Joy Greentea. I love gratis.

(enam) Selamat sampai di tempat ngajar dengan cukup waktu untuk bersih-bersih dulu.

(tujuh) Kelas CV yang menyenangkan. When the students are getting better, I feel like what I’m doing is right.

(delapan) Tiba di rumah dengan selamat setelah menjalani hari yang cukup melelahkan. Eh sampai di rumah, ternyata ada banyak bakwan. Asiiik…

(sembilan) Baca komik sambil makan bakwan, sesekali disempatkan ngetweet. Menjelang tengah malam, baru deh bersih-bersih dan tidur.

(sepuluh) The Hardest Relationship I’ve ever Had? I don’t want to talk about it. I took lesson, and that’s enough.

May 3, 2012
― things about May 2, 2012

10 Things from Yesterday

Yesterday was the first day for me to start writing again, something I haven’t done quite a while. If you ask me why I start writing again, I’ll simply answer, “It’s Magical May”. Honestly, I don’t really like May. May only reminds me of something that hurts and May always seems to have hotter weather than any other months. But this May feels different (I hope). And I know this May will be full of blessings and good things to be grateful for, like what happens on its first day. Let’s see if I can think of things from yesterday that I should be grateful for.

1. Come What May
Yesterday, the 1st day of May, I stumbled upon a writing project on Twitter called #MagicalMay2012, and decided to join it. Like a coincidence, the first writing assignment was “10 Things To Be Grateful For”. Right after I finished writing it, I realized, May wouldn’t be that bad. I should enjoy the month as well. Come what May…

2. To the office on time
Arrived at the office safely and on time after a long drive yesterday was something I should be thankful for. It was Tuesday, and I was still able to catch the Tuesday’s Meeting.

3. Payday
Yesterday was payday. Not that much, and half of what I got yesterday already disappeared to pay for this and that. At least I got paid though…

4. Free lunch
A friend treated me lunch yesterday. How cool is that?

5. To the class on time
It was another long drive from office to catch my afternoon class at 5. Thank God I arrived safely and on time as well. Still had a chance to take a quick shower before entering the class, so the students wouldn’t smell something weird that came from their teacher.

6. Singing along in a long drive
The CD player played random songs, and when it came into Judika’s “Bukan Dia Tapi Aku”, I set it on repeat. More than half an hour I sang along to the song again and again while driving. It brought back sad memories, but I wasn’t upset at all, I had fun.

7. Those attractive students
I couldn’t help but quietly stole a glance at some attractive students in the class. And I enjoyed it very much hahaha…

8. Silly conversations in Teacher’s Room
I always enjoy the conversation between me and fellow teachers while waiting for the bell ringing. Yesterday, it was just another silly and unimportant conversation, but like usual, we laughed a lot and had fun. How grateful I am to be part of them…

9. Small talk with my sister
When I finally reached home after a long day of working and teaching, my sister was also just home. We had a little talk for a while and giggled together over future plan and some other silly things. How beautiful a long busy yesterday was…

10. Almost sleepless
The only thing I consider as “bad” yesterday is when I couldn’t sleep on time no matter how hard I tried. I planned to sleep early last night, maybe around 10 pm or not more than 11 pm, but I failed and ended up finally falling asleep around 2 am the next morning. The result would be, of course, coming late to the office, so late.

So, the beginning of May isn’t that bad. In fact it seems like May will be a month full of Maybes, the good ones. We just have to show more gratitude over things. Gratitude isn’t something that happens when things go well, it’s a choice we make when they don’t.

May 2, 2012
― a may be

For me, it’s not easy to list down things to be grateful for. Call me ungrateful, but it seems easier to make a list full of things I’m NOT grateful for. Luckily, I’m willing to try. Now, let’s see if I can sort recent things out to be included in this list…

1. My family; Mom, my brother and my sister
It may sound cliche, or cheesy, or lame, whatever. But I’m still sane enough to remember I have these people I’m always proud of. I love them more than myself, I do. And this being the number one on the list is never enough to describe how thankful I am to have them in my life.

2. What I do for living
I may seem have spent a lot of time complaining about what I do for living, but deep inside, I feel lucky enough to have 2 jobs to keep me busy. An office buff in the morning, a teacher in the afternoon. Of course it’s tiring, and I have no idea how many times I feel like giving up. It’s not easy to travel 35 kms every morning and be hurry back in the afternoon to catch my 5 o’clock class. But having double jobs gives me better chance to help me forget other problems in life, if you know what I mean…

3. The latest purchase
Can’t really say it here, but a couple of weeks ago, I made a decision related to purchasing something, a big one. And it helps me relieve about how and where I am in the future. Hope it’s something God always bless.

4. Little K
Having you in my life for more than a year is something I will always treasure. You have given me a lust for life and for love. You have shown me what it means to care for someone so much. The idea of us being together is one thing I will always give it a good try to, along with the love and companionship. And I’m grateful for you more than that…

5. Reconciliation with an ex-crush
A silly simple thing like this which brings a quite big impact on our friendship. Even what we had was short, very short, you always have this space in my memory. Thanks for straightening things together.

6. A new gadget
Not really new, but since having it 3 months ago, I feel like a child who gets lost in a toy store.

7. Twitter crush
Those long conversations we had almost every night were fun. I know we can never take it to a higher step, and you know it too. Distance does matter, status matters even more. It’s fun though, we had fun. I flirt too much, do I? Hahaha…

8. Twitter friends
People can say I take twitter too seriously. They can say everything. I do enjoy sharing thoughts or having a monologue in my timeline. I’ve made friends with strangers, people from different cities, and it is fun. Some friends from twitter even know more about me than the ones from real life. Luckily, I have no problem with that.

9. Laze around all day on Sundays
Sunday is the day when I spend most of it sleeping, or lying down on bed to do nothing, or reading and tweeting. Being lazy on Sundays is one thing I’m thankful for after a whole busy weekdays.

10. Road trips
Last 2 road trips I had in the same month, 2 months ago, to the same city. Both were fun and awesome. It. had been a while since the last time I went traveling. With double jobs like mine, a simple trip means getting away from boring routines. And I’m always grateful for every chance I do so.

Of course there a lot of other things to be grateful for, some even can’t make it on the list because they’re too valuable and it would only lower them down if I put them here. Like, being grateful for God, nature, my life, my soul, my existence. I can never include them here, I’m grateful for those blessings by default. There is so much good, so much beauty, so much love in my life. What more do I really need? I have so much right now, I just need to pause long enough to appreciate it. Thanks. Thanks. And Thanks.

May 1, 2012
― a forgetful gratitude