Day 9 — Something Right

  • April,9th,2014 at 5:50 AM

There will never be enough words to describe how much love I actually have inside my heart.
Too much that sometimes I think it’s wrong.

But there’s nothing wrong about something right, right?
All I feel is, that it feels so right, even if you left.


April 8
— to my baby

Day 8 — The Game

  • April,7th,2014 at 9:57 PM

This little game of love we play is now becoming the waiting game.
Waiting for who’s going to fall first, waiting for who’s going to hurt first, and waiting for who’s going to leave first.

I win. Only to lose.

Day Seven — Seven Days

  • April,6th,2014 at 9:50 PM

It’s been a week.

Seven days of struggling and surviving.
Seven days of trying to start a new beginning without really knowing the end.
Seven days of desperation, frustration, and expectation.
Seven days since you asked me to leave and stop fighting.

Does a week make a change? It probably does.
So far, I’ve learned to live without hoping when I’m not missing you.
And when I’m missing you, I just breathe.
It gets harder everyday, but it works.

I know you’re not mine.
But you’re my reason.
My reason to believe that no matter how hard I try to stop myself from loving, I have no other way than to let it grow.

Starts right from the moment I wake up in the morning, until I close my eyes at night.
Every day.

It’s been seven days.
And for every day, one letter.


— April 6

Day 6 — Like We Wish

  • April,5th,2014 at 5:56 PM

I guess loving is one way to accept why things do not go like the way we expect them to be.

If we are not in love, we will probably just ignore. We do not even care to accept and let go. But we are in love, that’s why no matter how disappointed we get because of the rejection, we always try to find the way to believe that we cannot always have what we want.

Sadly, the ones we love do not always see that way like we wish they would.


— April 5

Day 5 - That Voice

  • April,4th,2014 at 6:56 AM

It’s the fifth day after the rejection.
Not even a week yet.

I whisper to myself:
“Why should today be worse than yesterday?”

That little voice in my head answers:
“Because it gets harder everyday knowing that the more day goes on, the more you get apart.”

I smile bitterly. Maybe tomorrow this hope will finally go away. Maybe.

Quote of the Day

  • April,3rd,2014 at 10:25 AM

Ada rindu yang harus ditahan, karena tak semuanya bisa diungkapkan tanpa beban.

- (via kotak-nasi)

You :’)

Day 4 - Just Another Day

  • April,3rd,2014 at 6:31 AM

Waking up this morning, nothing was new.
You were still the one coming to my mind right after I opened my eyes.

I tried to smile, though.
And I whispered to myself, “It’s just impossible to wake up in the morning and stop loving someone.”.

So I let my mind take me to everywhere it goes.
It’s just another day. I’m sure I can survive it.


— April 3rd

Hari Tiga — April 2nd

  • April,2nd,2014 at 10:14 PM

"Mungkin cuma bercanda."
Kataku dalam hati, ke diri sendiri.

"Ah iya, pasti ini hanya bercanda."
Kataku lagi, meyakinkan diri bahwa penolakan yang kudengar darimu adalah tak lebih dari lelucon belaka.

"Hahaha… Dasar kamu, kali ini berhasil mempermainkanku."
Aku tertawa dalam hati sambil membayangkan ekspresi jahil di wajahmu.

Senyumku masih mengembang saat sekilas kulihat jam dan tanggal di layar telepon genggamku.

Tanggal 2 April.
Hari berganti.
April Mop sudah lewat.

  • April,2nd,2014 at 5:34 AM

Waking up is the hardest.
Missing you so much.
And feeling like dying.

"Will I ever survive today?", the question I ask myself right after I open my eyes.

It’s like breathing under water.

Siapapun yang menjadi kekasihmu nanti, aku yakin dia akan menyayangimu seperti aku menyayangimu.
Mungkin lebih.
Karena dia akan lebih punya banyak waktu untukmu. Dia juga akan ada setiap saat kau butuh. Dia bisa menemanimu dalam perjalanan tanpa rencana. Dia mencintaimu tanpa terhalang jarak.

Siapapun dia yang kelak mendampingimu setelahku, aku yakin dia akan menjagamu seperti aku menjagamu.
Bahkan lebih.
Karena dia akan selalu ada di sisi kanan tempat tidurmu. Dia juga yang akan memelukmu sepanjang malam. Dia bisa menjagamu tetap lelap dalam kehangatan raganya.

Siapapun yang kau cintai setelah kepergianku, selalu akan lebih baik dariku.
Karena aku hanya bisa mengucap sayang lewat pesan singkat. Aku hanya bisa menemanimu lewat suara di seberang telepon. Aku hanya bisa memelukmu dalam gambar tak bergerak. Aku hanya bisa menjagamu dalam jeda. Aku hanya bisa mencintai semampuku menghapus jarak.

Siapapun yang menjadi kekasihmu nanti, dia juaranya.

Photo of the Day

  • March,31st,2014 at 6:28 PM

Bukan tentang kata “tidak” yang kudengar.
Bukan juga tentang penolakan yang kudapat.
Tapi tentang kenyataan bahwa sekali lagi, ternyata aku tidak cukup layak untuk dicintai seseorang.

Bukan tentang kata “tidak” yang kudengar.
Bukan juga tentang penolakan yang kudapat.
Tapi tentang kenyataan bahwa sekali lagi, ternyata aku tidak cukup layak untuk dicintai seseorang.

Hari Satu - Izinkan Aku Sekali Lagi

  • March,31st,2014 at 5:43 PM

Aku datang.
Bukan untuk memintamu kembali. Bukan juga untuk berpanjang lebar menjelaskan alasan-alasan atas perbuatanku padamu. Aku datang dengan mencoba tidak membawa serta pengharapan. Meski itu berarti membohongi diriku sendiri. Karena seribu kalipun aku berkata bahwa aku telah berhenti berharap, harapan itu selalu ada.

Aku hanya ingin memelukmu sekali saja, untuk terakhir kali. Sekali saja sepanjang hari.
Aku hanya ingin memelukmu dalam diam. Dalam diam sepanjang malam.

Karena betapa keras aku berjuang, aku akan tetap kalah dalam perang. Izinkan aku memelukmu, bukan untuk sekali lagi berjuang, tapi untuk terakhir kali sebelum aku benar-benar menghilang.


A Long March
— lifeless

  • March,30th,2014 at 6:49 AM

Ever waking up in the morning missing someone you no longer have?
And you feel like you don’t want to live that day…

I do.
Every day since you left.

Photo of the Day

  • March,29th,2014 at 1:46 PM

Because someday is a mystery.

Because someday is a mystery.

Photo of the Day

  • March,16th,2014 at 8:43 AM

"Of course it’s happening inside your head, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?" — (Albus Dumbledore)

To those who dreamed last night, but could only dream because what happened in that dream was too good to be true. – View on Path.

"Of course it’s happening inside your head, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?" — (Albus Dumbledore)

To those who dreamed last night, but could only dream because what happened in that dream was too good to be true. – View on Path.

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